If you could ask one favor from God, what would it be?

We all might have many favors to ask from God and it is difficult to narrow down to one. what I truly like to ask is to get back to my childhood. Where there were no worries and no sorrows, just joyful moments. For me, the childhood was all about being cheerful with friends and family, doing mistakes without even comprehending the consequences. When I used to have friends, the real ones, who didn’t judge me for my looks. The lazy, carefree days when I had all the time in the world. I feel like life were more sorted back then, where nights were meant to sleep not to overthink.

For me, the scariest thing in life is getting old, for being more analytical, where there’s a load of thoughts, where stress and anxiety seems to dominate. I know I’m not the only person on the planet who has a distressing life. Maybe I just haven’t learned to handle it very well. Maybe I’m spoiled, maybe I’m just going through a phase. Or maybe my time is gradually approaching.

I know this is life, we grow up and we’re supposed to experience the hardships of life. In the end, these sufferings and hardships make us stronger. But it’s just a wish, a silly wish to live, laugh, and love as a carefree child again. 🙂

I miss being carefree

I miss being with friends,

I miss being carefree,

I miss those crazy moments with friends and crazy talks,

When there were no worries, no sorrows at all,

When I used to enjoy every moment with heart,

When there was just happiness throughout,

There was nothing to worry about,

And then everything changed,

My world starts breaking down,

I am left with no genuine friends around,

My heart feels heavy yet empty inside out,

I am left with thousands of fears and emotions around,

One thing I’ve realized deep-down,

The more I get older, the more upsetting thoughts are gathering around!

The wishes that could never be true!

There are certain unfulfilled dreams and wishes that will remain just wishes for us. Wishes like reversing the time, going back in the past and changing the decisions, bringing desired people in our lives. If we resign ourselves to those wishes that never come true, they start building an empire inside, an empire full of repentance. As a result, we start living in a fantasy world, imagining the scenarios that never happened or could never happen in the future.

Instead of trying to get over, some people start living in the past and get stuck at that time. As a result, they can’t really relish the present because they still have those regrets, wishes, and disappointments. Feelings of being unheard, start becoming unexpressed emotions that never die and come later in uglier ways.

The best way to overcome is to let the emotions flow, never let the distressing feelings cloud your mind, make peace with yourself, forget the past, and try to live in the moment.

Some wishes are meant to remain as wish only, they never come true. Some dreams can never be materialized, some expectations can never meet, yet we continue to live. Hiding all the pain, scars, and wounds, that’s what life is, we continue to live, time flies and life goes on!

All of her stars are burning ♥

I wake up in the morning and find myself imprisoned in a cage of the bad things that ever happened to me, those bad experiences, decisions, and disappointments. All I wanted at that moment is to disappear, disappear from this world, and never return back. I keep holding those emotions, feelings, and anger inside me for so long that they have built a wall around my heart, a wall of darkness. I don’t feel like myself anymore.  And suddenly, I become sad for no reason at all. There’s pain with no apparent cause. It feels like the past is replaying the worst scenes of my life over and over, trying to convince me that I’m less than good for anything.

It’s not the Place, it’s you

I always thought that the moment I would leave my country, I was going to have a better life. I had the impression that life in another country was better, but I realized after arriving in this beautiful country that when we move from one place to another we take our problems, insecurities, memories, sorrows, and self-images with us. No amount of new people, places, or things will give us happiness if, inside of us there is a big black cloud. From far away, you can see the big picture. You can have an image of the lifestyle you’re going to live, but that doesn’t mean it is going to be exactly the way you will actually live it.

People show their best moments on their social networks, however, very few of them show the moments when they feel down, moments when they have no strength left to keep going, and the challenges they face.

The feeling that a place can give you is mainly in accordance with yourself and not with what other people feel. However, you have the choice to make your journey amazing and wonderful. You’ll find yourself becoming whoever you want to be and seeing whatever you want to see.

 

via- Hortencio Cassamene